Tuesday, November 15, 2005

Crazy...

Well, I never thought I'd say this, but it appears Alanis Morisette and I have something in common. One of our favorite all-time songs is "Crazy" by Seal.
She did a remake I heard on the radio, and surprisingly didn't butcher it. Hmmmm

Love Affairs
Life IS crazy for me right now. You see dear readers, Adam has bitten off more than he can chew. I am in love with two different men.

This all started shortly before Halloween when I met two different guys all around the same time. So, as I was dating and getting to know people, I figured I would go ona few dates and get to know these two guys (who I will refer to as "S" and "P") a little better.
Things have gotten a bit more complicated than that as the weeks have gone by. I see them both, and with each I see great things I could fall in love with. I know, having two men in my life is so Anna Karenina, but I've gotten myself into this mess, and I'm not sure what to do. No easy answers.

And I'm sick of cliche shit like "follow your heart," especially when my heart is evenly divided. It's not that easy. One of two things will come of this: I will have to choose one over the other, or I will loose them both. Either way at least two people involved will have feelings hurt, if they haven't been hurt already.

I haven't been all that honest in this blog either, ommitting details of my life, since people read this blog and word gets around. But I'm coming clean because a decision-making has been thrust on me, like it or not. I told "P" the truth Friday night when I went over to his place, and I told "S" the truth last night as we took a nightime walk along the canal of Georgetown. I parted ways with him, and found myself crying, walking through Georgetown, the weight of it all hitting me, that there is no easy way out of this.

2 comments:

Brian said...

You did the right thing Adam. You have just closed one door in your life and soon another will open. That opened door will be filled with happier and less confusing times, don't be too hard on yourself.

Anonymous said...

so is S gone and P here now?